Woohoo, long weekend, right smack bang in the middle of the summer holidays.
Alright,
lets just get down to it. Back in October 2014, I applied for Master of
Teaching at Melbourne University, teaching secondary, specialising in
Math and Physics. Last week, I found out I was successful in my
application.
I have decided not to accept and continue
on with my studies in Engineering. Teaching will need to be put on hold,
for quite a while.
Many of my friends will be
disappointed having just read that. I know and I apologise. I heard your
arguments, of the need for good teachers and to follow my heart and
what I want. In the end, I am didn't heart, nor the selflessness that
was required.
Similarly, to those, I haven't consulted;
I think I could have guessed your answers and when that happens, I
usually don't ask the question.
It wasn't a decision I
came to lightly. I turned off my phone for a couple of days and just
tried really hard to relax as much as I could to make a neutral
decision. I'm sorry, if I ignored you this week, or was grouchy.
Over
the years, I have become concerned at my inability to see things
through. There is a long list of hobbies, friendships and other things
which I never continued, because I simply stopped because, I couldn't be
bothered, because I felt my skills was enough at the time, because I
felt I couldn't be the best at it or because I simply last my interest
in it. I do feel its, a serious issue which is applicable here.
Engineering
is difficult and my lack of motivation is concerning, but its something
I feel I need to see through. I don't know if I can succeed in
Engineering, I don't know, if I can make it into a career nor do I know
if I'll enjoy it. But at some point in my life, I need to challenge
myself, to see what I can do.
If this is to become a
mistake, than so be it. Mistakes sometimes need to happen, to not live
the rest of our lives in regret of not trying.
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