As I write this I'm typing on my very first computer. It runs window xp, using a keyboard that has very little feedback, using a processor that struggles with flash. I felt it was fairly ionic that it is this week, out of all the weeks that I'm using my old computer. In a month week where the my past has come full circle with the present, the irony of using the old computer which I used to write my first blog to now write my 201st blog is not lost on me.
Back then, I was using myspace and MSN messenger. I would have been happy with 10 views per posts and I wrote a lot of the same stuff over and and over again.
This week, I got to hang out with my friends that I don't see all that often anymore. Whilst I talk to them a lot, there is something better in hanging out with certain people. The friends who I made in first year uni, who all study different subject finally had our timetables align so that we actually spent time with each other, rather than constantly chatting online. It was really nice to see everyone again. These friends has been absolutely amazing and I was very grateful to see them all together again.
We went to our third science ball. Again, it felt like 1st year again, when we were just going through that phase where we comfortable in each other's company.
It was just nice. Nice to see old friends to see that we still clicked and in many way still a clique.
And many of the friends that I've made since then were there. The friends who saw me through engineering the last few years
And as we come up to graduation, I know that if nothing else, I've made some wonderful friends, both old and new.
God damn, I don't know what it is, but coming up to my 21st birthday, I've become strangely reflective.
A while back I wrote a post regarding peoples expectations and what we can do about it. I wrote that
"We do the best we can, and no one should expect anymore from us."
Its funny, growing up we get told that, as long as we're doing out best we should be happy with life and everything will be eventually great. Sometimes, I don't always agree.
When your best is not enough, sitting back and saying "At least I tried my best" feels really defeatist. I know that trying to do our best is all we can do. But, when your best is not enough and others do better than your best, I feel that we should be able to do better, than others.
I'd rather just say, I didn't do my best, instead of saying, I did my best and it wasn't enough.
~TastyJacks~
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